In my never ending quest to understand the world around me, I've begun to question and see many InCoNsIsTiNcIeS in alot of our everyday life.
Most recently the issue I've ran across were the problems I've come to have when asked to identify myself. Because due to my eveeeer critical mind I have begun to see that for me to say to someone "I am Josue", I have to overlook the CRUCIAL fact that I have just not said anything to the person, at all. And I know you all are thinking right now what am I talking about..., but lets think about the problems with that statement why don't we? PIECE by piece...
First and foremost I have an issue with the way "I" and "Josue" in that statement correlate, because in all honesty how much do "I" really know about "I" for me to so presumably give "I" a label, (epecially a label that was not even chosen by me in the first place). ??Can I even confidently claim that I am an "I"?? Can I with cerainty say that I am this singular insisting letter? Aren't "I" more of a plural worded being? because I have not always been "I"; at 13 "I" was an entirely different person than the "I", I would have claimed to be at 7. At ages 16 and 12 my two slfs SELVES if they came across each other might not be able to say that they recognize each other, let alone claim that they are the same person!! In fact thinking now "i" at 20 cannot honestly say that I understand, or even like the individual who was named Josue Desulme at 18... a person who lacked so much maturity and an understanding of his-self or others around him. SO with this knowledge can "I" so presumptuously refer to myself as an "I", aren't I being slightly deceatful to the antcipating multitudes of people waiting for me to identify myself??????
But!!!, what may be being asked of me, is for me to simply identify myself currently, as I currently am... For me to identify the "am" in the phrase and not so much the "I". But even there I must pause....................................................................................., and point out the fact this word ?"am"? is relative. Because although at first glance the "am" in the phrase "I am Josue" appears to anchor down the "I" and the "Josue" & then place them within the confines of a TIMe time frame, one must trully think 2 question that. The "am" in itself is an everchanging figure, & it is in all actuallity an opponent to the idea of the stationary singular existing "I", because don't we or rather our "I"'s adjust our "am"'s frequently to fit our need? Don't agree? Ok, if you were to go to your parents and ask them to finish your sentence "I am...?" what would they define you as? would it be the same answer you would get if you asked your best friend, a teacher, your mate, your ex????? --> See what must be remebered is how fickle & relative the word "am" is, because it is a word that aDjuSt, CHANGES, and transforms depending on when, where, & who is around. (or it is just a word that signifies a mask out of the many we adorn)
(Pay attention, theres more than meets the EYE)
So with "i" bEing so chAnging (K) & TRansfUrmiNg, and wiTH "Am" being so (T) weAkLLy grounded in anyThIng (M) rEal, (S) can i trully gO foRth with my phRase and (I) label myself "joSue", (K) a worD that givES The (R) indUCation That "i" at any tIme "am" one stagnOnt unchanging thiNg.
(Did you get IT)
It stands out as an obvious piece of idiocy to me, to even think that. Because if "I am Josue" now, what will I be when my mans walk in??? will I still be "Josue"? (Sway most likely), how about if my pastor walks in?? Wwhat will I be labeled at 25? 30? Will I really still be labeled "Josue", that unchanging title? See the problem with the phrase "I am Josue" is that the phrase is a poor and a FOOLish attempt to encapsulate a being in my eyes. Especially one as complex with depth as me.
So in my never ending quest to understand the world around me, I've begun to question and see many InCoNsIsTiNcIeS in alot of our everyday lives, and this is just one I felt like sharing...
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