Dope...Jay Breaking Down "Most Kingz"

Jay will be releasing Decoded, his first book, on Tuesday November 16th through Spiegel and Grau, an imprint of the Random House Publishing Group. In case you were wondering what was that logo is all about…it was inspired by Andy Warhol:

Featuring an image of Andy Warhol’s Rorschach on the cover, the beautifully designed, fully-illustrated book decodes 36 songs from JAY-Z’s extensive catalog. By telling the stories behind some of Jay-Z’s most famous and provocative lyrics, Decoded offers an intimate, first-hand account of an artist, his work, and the culture that so powerfully shaped him.

Here is what Jay-Z had to say about the book:

"When I first started working on this book, I told my editor that I wanted it to do three important things. The first was to make the case that hip-hop lyrics—not just my lyrics, but those of every great MC—are poetry if you look at them closely enough. The second was I wanted the book to tell a little bit of the story of my generation, to show the context for the choices we made at a violent and chaotic crossroads in recent history. And the third piece was that I wanted the book to show how hip-hop created a way to take a very specific and powerful experience and turn it into a story that everyone in the world could feel and relate to."

Order the book now from his Facebook page.

sTILL OnISteY (Still Honesty)...The unsaid words of the lost...

I have to first laugh as I begin to write these words lol, because after all the bravado, arrogant denials & scoffs at the very idea.... I still inevitablly find myself where I swore I wouldn't, overwhelmed by my own thoughts... and at this point I throw in the towel.... I submissively step out of my denial.

I guess I should start off with the most basic truth... I have no idea what I'm doing anymore... After taking a hit... I've been trying to find what/who I'm supposed to be, what I'm "supposed" to be doing and quite honestly what I've found is nothing...

Lol, and it is hilarious to me, because I think I convinced myself for a minute there that I had attained a period of stabillity, or at least satisfaction. But the truth is I think I keep myself distracted enough that I don't have to think about the fact that I, in my Foolish and prideful ways, may have managed to push away and chase away everything that once mattered...

Why? Maybe because I felt that situations and individuals were to close, leaving me vulnerable something I & my pride couldn't have. Maybe I couldn't cope with change, maybe I was a coward, maybe...

The reason I find, is now ironically irrelevant (seeing as how I have spent many nights and conversations trying to uncover those very reasons)...what I find is important is that after a much too long period of time I Still find myself unable to find direction, and with countless things to say. Still behaving recklessly, looking forward to only drunken nights, and bitches I could care less about...Still emotionally wounded, and similarily to that wounded animal, I immediately guard myself against anyone else who may want to approach my wounds and within 1 months time successfully chase them away by being the jerk/asshole that I have always been so wonderful at being...lol

And as I now realize what I have written up to this point and exactly what it is I am doing, I of course contemplate not posting this for fear that I am being too transparent, completely opposite from the arrogant facade that I try to adorn most days...but honestly I think if I don't post this to the public I'd go crazy...I mean after the countless convos I have with myself I need to share some of my mental burdens...

Thanks for listening

CRAZY!!!!!! Kanye West feat. Common Pusha T Kid Cudi Big Sean Charlie Wilson) GOOD F...

As Poignant as Reality Can Get...Kanye West Mini Movie "We Were Once A Fairy Tale"

I found the video depiction of Mr. West murdering his innocence due to his lifestyle choice full of much depth...But I don't know that was just my take on it, tell me what you guys think... 

My Man...He Back Y'all!!!!!!!! NEYO'S MINI Movie -CHAMPAGNE LIFE & ONE IN A MILLION
 

Crazy Dope Fan Vids: ColdPlay Warning Sign

Tell me which one ya'll prefer

CLASSIC RARE FOOTAGE!!!!!!!!!! PAC & BIG.... WHAT COULDA BEEN...

Passing Thought...

Robert T. Kiyosaki said "Cynics and fools are twins on opposite sides of reality and possibility. Fools will believe any far fetched scheme and a cynic will criticize anything outside of their reality"

I say however that Robert Kiyosaki proves himself to be a cynic because what he fails to realize is that the "Fool" doesn't believe any farfetched scheme but continually DARES to dream that they are possible...I mean its all about how you look at it...ThoughtofTheFool

Dear You, by my homie Mrs. Chamara Cotton

Dear YOU,

You def know that i had a poem for you coming,

it jus seemed i didn't have the words but today they have been summoned,

like no doubt i love you like a sister,

but it's just lately i've been riding out and u've been seemin more like a drifter,

let me backtrack and tell you what i mean,

see to be honest i tell you MOST things but you don't really KNOW ME FOR ME,

when you and him got together it reminded me of days when i use to hear them screams,

days when my mom and dad asked us to pick a team,

but u should know about that more than anybody,

but im sorry i can't be a spectator while violence becomes your hobby,

it seems negativity is starting to exhume from your body,

i would tell u this face to face but you know poetry is my hobby,

yours too,

by the way your poetry is so beautiful,

just like your character,

it seems u are consumed with her death,

as i would be too,

but u just have to know u are not suffering alone,

REAL friends will ALWAYS be there for you,

but it seems that life is knocking on your door,but your scared to marry her,

scared to intertwine and just let life carry ya,

spontaniety (sp check lol) is prob an issue because of all the things u hide in your heart,

but it's always a cycle between the light and the dark,

what goes in the wash always has to come out in the rinse,

i just pray that this poem helps US make sense,

i just feel you have sooo much hatred in you heart from ya past,

that in most situations u feel pain when u should laugh,

but i see past that at the good in you,

I just wish u could be that person at all venues,

I just wish it was somebody u trusted enough with your secrets,

like u always talk about how u know ur worth but i dont really think you do,

u say ur insecure but to me ur beautiful,

like to be honest i cant stand what he, or he, or she, put u through,

well i hate seeing u like this so i had to take a break,

and i hope this poem is sayin what i'm tryna say...
 
 
 

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Scene From One Of My Favorite Movies...Artistically Truthful

Expectations/Reality from Amanda Munoz on Vimeo.

dIs IS gOnNa BeE a pRaBlem: John Legend & The Roots (Feat. Common & Melanie Fiona) - Wake Up Everybody

The first official video from John Legend and The Roots’ collaborative album Wake Up! hitting store shelves on September 21st. This is gonna be a must Grab ya'll

Dope... Fooled Me By Claudelle Ozulma

It's funny how I thought you were the one

The one who made my heart beat sung

Beating like an African drum

In a ritual under the sun

See, it was like the beginning of time

I was that darkened mystery with no form or light

No purpose, point nor existence

I can't even believe I caught your eye

You brought the light into my life

It was you who separated my day from night

My sky from land

You gave form to my world

Placing things perfectly with no mistakes

Hmm, I guess none of that had any meaning to you

Since you did play with my emotions

Like I had no feelings

Might as well had stabbed me in my chest

Cuz the feeling I felt

Was like experiencing death...

You did me so much wrong,

it hurts to think back about it

But I gotta let you know how I felt

Cuz like I said before,

It's funny how I thought you were the one...

Kinda Old But Def a Must Listen:

http://www.datpiff.com/Lauryn-Hill-Columbia-Records-The-Re-Education-of-L-mid8569.html

CRaZy sPocEn WorD artis: Saul Williams Goin In

Pedagogue Of Young Gods from Tanner on Vimeo.

"BRILLIANCE AT WORK: YE IN THE STU WITH KOBE, SWIZZY, & MOS"

Excerpt From Wale's New Mixtape "The Problem"

This is a no-bright but a mere portion of a semi-important life,

Far from a complaint, but a mere look at the present showin you the changes that I made,
The proverbial lemonade that I made,

I made my mistakes, you see life's lemons often times come in a abundance,
In conjunction with the pressure that we're under,

Underrated some would say, hated, and some say it's the things I say or how I say em,
And I admit, in this race I tend to struggle to relate in words,
It's like I'm an alien who alienates by the herd, so as far as being heard
I guess I gotta wait, deprived by the station's eye
Wale, more times than not, am not for whom the air waves

Thank God for the free thinkers, for you keep me in mind,
In this state of mind that I'm in, for you keep me in the race with the baton that yall give,
And they hype beat, street wear, Versace and Vuitton that I'm in
It really don't matter unless yall comin with

No days off, may we rip the face of the whole game off,
I'm gon say it to yall, I'm gonna put my faith in yall when I don't understand me,
They say I'm runnin hip-hop but I'd rather unify with yall and stampede,

And lastly for everybody who doubted I can't live without you, please
Continue to inspire the fire that is my re-dedication to greatness yall,
Paint a picture to A.D. to freestyles to famous songs we out 'chere

Unforgettable gestures, unmeasurable effort, to pleasure the masses with impeccable work ethic

Let's get it,

I go hard,

no days off

 

Kanye West Performs "Mama's Boyfriends" Off His New Album

What I Need

I need to be vindicated thats what I seek...

I need to be liberated from the assumptions & preconceived notions that surround my being on an everyday basis, from the surrounding hecklers who heckle hoping to see a flaw, so that a resounding wave of "I told you so's" can resonate throughout the vicinity...

I wanna be free of these not-knowers who claim so much to know, with an amount of knowledge that really shows how much they actually don't know anything at all...

I wanna be vindicated of my continual trial, the prosecutor is foul, I'm now made guilty for just opening my mouth...

I seek to be vindicated of strife because it's turning the word "Persevere" into a cliche that I'm currently sick of, in fact I wouldn't mind if I never heard the word again. The word resembling my situations purpose hollow, meaningless, & old is now simply another thing that gets on my nerves & bothers me...

I'm sick of this gun squad that steadily takes aim at my pride, my determination, & my self-esteem picking them all off with pinpoint accuracy...

Vindicated is what I need to be because it makes me believe that the bitch called "Karma" gave up her position to "Loki The Trickster" so that now being a good person is meaningless & character is without a point, simply something the great trickster can sit back upon & laugh at...

I need you desperately vindication, I need to be made to believe regardless of whether it's true or not, {because for now a peace of mind is worth more to me than honesty}that my steady grind to do better is worth something, SOMETHING that could convince me to keep going because in all honesty ya'll...I'm tired...

So yeah, I need vindication, at least for a little while...

Real Talk "A Throw Back" Late 2008ish

Real Talk, I don't feel like havin a real talk,
nor do I want anyone other then me to see my heart.
Why???
Cause people seein my heart doesn't make me look strong,
naw, instead it makes me look like I need a crutch to walk.
Which the always leads to the casual pep talk,
from friends about how "yea it might seem hard...
but one day eventually the healing will start".... {at which point I just chuckle like "yea"}
But maybe I'm judging a little too harsh,
I mean, maybe I'm not seein that you can actually see the scars,
and not simply give out sympathetic remarks.
I mean, maybe you too have been through the dark,
maybe you too have been to the sea that don't part,
even when your tellin God that your cool with pain, you just wish he would've given you a head start...
or at least a heads-up of what was to come.
Cause I mean, who would've thought it would be so hard nowadays to get up,
everyday thinkin the same ole thoughts, trying to find an actual cause.
Until you realize that it was your fault,
and at that realization you just want to dart,
to a place far, real real far,
where maybe, just maybe it ain't so dark...
And I guess real talk,
this is why I hate havin real talks,
cause every time I have one I just end up remindin myself why breathing for me been so hard...
cause for the last couple months I've been livin without a piece of my heart...
Real Talk. 

Parrt 1 of theFools questiionz, idees, nd consernz: The Problem with the Statement "I am Josue"

In my never ending quest to understand the world around me, I've begun to question and see many InCoNsIsTiNcIeS in alot of our everyday life.


Most recently the issue I've ran across were the problems I've come to have when asked to identify myself. Because due to my eveeeer critical mind I have begun to see that for me to say to someone "I am Josue", I have to overlook the CRUCIAL fact that I have just not said anything to the person, at all. And I know you all are thinking right now what am I talking about..., but lets think about the problems with that statement why don't we? PIECE by piece...


First and foremost I have an issue with the way "I" and "Josue" in that statement correlate, because in all honesty how much do "I" really know about "I" for me to so presumably give "I" a label, (epecially a label that was not even chosen by me in the first place). ??Can I even confidently claim that I am an "I"?? Can I with cerainty say that I am this singular insisting letter? Aren't "I" more of a plural worded being? because I have not always been "I"; at 13 "I" was an entirely different person than the "I", I would have claimed to be at 7. At ages 16 and 12 my two slfs SELVES if they came across each other might not be able to say that they recognize each other, let alone claim that they are the same person!! In fact thinking now "i" at 20 cannot honestly say that I understand, or even like the individual who was named Josue Desulme at 18... a person who lacked so much maturity and an understanding of his-self or others around him. SO with this knowledge can "I" so presumptuously refer to myself as an "I", aren't I being slightly deceatful to the antcipating multitudes of people waiting for me to identify myself??????


But!!!, what may be being asked of me, is for me to simply identify myself currently, as I currently am... For me to identify the "am" in the phrase and not so much the "I". But even there I must pause....................................................................................., and point out the fact this word ?"am"? is relative. Because although at first glance the "am" in the phrase "I am Josue" appears to anchor down the "I" and the "Josue" & then place them within the confines of a TIMe time frame, one must trully think 2 question that. The "am" in itself is an everchanging figure, & it is in all actuallity an opponent to the idea of the stationary singular existing "I", because don't we or rather our "I"'s adjust our "am"'s frequently to fit our need? Don't agree? Ok, if you were to go to your parents and ask them to finish your sentence "I am...?" what would they define you as? would it be the same answer you would get if you asked your best friend, a teacher, your mate, your ex????? --> See what must be remebered is how fickle & relative the word "am" is, because it is a word that aDjuSt, CHANGES, and transforms depending on when, where, & who is around. (or it is just a word that signifies a mask out of the many we adorn)

(Pay attention, theres more than meets the EYE)

So with "i" bEing so chAnging (K) & TRansfUrmiNg, and wiTH "Am" being so (T) weAkLLy grounded in anyThIng (M) rEal, (S) can i trully gO foRth with my phRase and (I) label myself "joSue", (K) a worD that givES The (R) indUCation That "i" at any tIme "am" one stagnOnt unchanging thiNg.

(Did you get IT)


It stands out as an obvious piece of idiocy to me, to even think that. Because if "I am Josue" now, what will I be when my mans walk in??? will I still be "Josue"? (Sway most likely), how about if my pastor walks in?? Wwhat will I be labeled at 25? 30? Will I really still be labeled "Josue", that unchanging title? See the problem with the phrase "I am Josue" is that the phrase is a poor and a FOOLish attempt to encapsulate a being in my eyes. Especially one as complex with depth as me.


So in my never ending quest to understand the world around me, I've begun to question and see many InCoNsIsTiNcIeS in alot of our everyday lives, and this is just one I felt like sharing...