Real Talk "A Throw Back" Late 2008ish

Real Talk, I don't feel like havin a real talk,
nor do I want anyone other then me to see my heart.
Why???
Cause people seein my heart doesn't make me look strong,
naw, instead it makes me look like I need a crutch to walk.
Which the always leads to the casual pep talk,
from friends about how "yea it might seem hard...
but one day eventually the healing will start".... {at which point I just chuckle like "yea"}
But maybe I'm judging a little too harsh,
I mean, maybe I'm not seein that you can actually see the scars,
and not simply give out sympathetic remarks.
I mean, maybe you too have been through the dark,
maybe you too have been to the sea that don't part,
even when your tellin God that your cool with pain, you just wish he would've given you a head start...
or at least a heads-up of what was to come.
Cause I mean, who would've thought it would be so hard nowadays to get up,
everyday thinkin the same ole thoughts, trying to find an actual cause.
Until you realize that it was your fault,
and at that realization you just want to dart,
to a place far, real real far,
where maybe, just maybe it ain't so dark...
And I guess real talk,
this is why I hate havin real talks,
cause every time I have one I just end up remindin myself why breathing for me been so hard...
cause for the last couple months I've been livin without a piece of my heart...
Real Talk.